Dear Strawberry, I Became Unreliable.

im so sorry you had to go through such tragedies one after the other, take your time to heal and be you again no matter the mods for this game. the game will always be around and the only way you will be around too is to focus on yourself. take as long as you need to heal and come back 💗

Hello strong human,

Cause that is what you are. Thank you for sharing your pain and your struggles with us. I am incredibly greatfull for you still being here although we don't know eachother personally. What ever time you need, take it. You are not your success, but you are a person who deserves all the healing. Embrace it, if you can. As a survivor of depression myself who is still struggling I feel every word you have written. Thanks for transparency. 💛

I am sorry for your loss I also struggle w/ mental health, but one thing I know you can't force something that doesn't feel right. I been using your mods for a while and I can honestly say no matter what direction you decide to make make sure it's your choice the people who enjoy you as a creator will love any choice you make just make sure to put you first this will always be here but there's only one you.

Life comes first! Looking forward to what you come up with. Take care of yourself and enjoy the good things that come.

I am incredibly sorry for all your losses. Your mental health is way more important than anything I would rather you take care of yourself than running yourself into the ground than focusing on updating your mods. Don't get me wrong, I love your mods and they are amazing and you have put so much work into them, but the love of creating them and updating them will never feel fulfilling if it becomes more cumbersome and starts draining your mental health. Please take care of yourself and do what you love and brings you happiness and fulfillment! I look forward to anything new that you put out and will help find your passion again when you are better. Do not rush and take your time to get better. You are more important than anything! :)

I'm So happy you're okay. Taking care of you should always be your 1st priority, don't ever apologize for that. We Love you and will be here for you. Take your time and do what you want to do.

Hey there, I'm glad that you're feeling better! I've always looked at your mods as reliable quality work. However, sometimes expectetions from others especially when it comes to mental health, can be to much an it's okay. Don't be afraid to exit any situation that could be an obstacle to your happiness. As someone who has struggled with depression too, I just want to share with you this advice, always look for the truth.

May God bless you, and I sincerely wish you all the best!

I'm so sorry to hear of all of your loss and grief. You are still beautifully amazing inside and out and with everything you do! You didn't let us down, you were just going through and dealing with life as we all have to do. much love, xoxo. 💜

I am happy to see your wish to restart and love modding again. I would never feel right knowing you were having a hard time just to make us happy. I wish you the best and I can't wait to see what you create!! <3

I'm wishing you all the healing, peace, and space you need to get through this, dear. Know that you have a lot of followers who adore you and the efforts you have put into this community for many, many years. Take all the time you need to find yourself, be yourself, and become a version of yourself that YOU find proud of. That YOU can love. Continue to pour into yourself and embrace all that brings you light and joy in the darkness. Much love, from Jaq <3

Whoever you lost as far as followers will be replenished with new followers, or those returning who were silly enough to doubt you. Those who support you stand by you; you have thousands of people on your side. Don't let yourself be discouraged. You will regain your strength and your vitality. You are so much stronger than you know. Sending all my love and support, I can't wait to see what's in Kawaiistacie's next chapter. 😻

We love you Stacie and we will wait for you whenever you are ready, thanks for being vulnerable and we can wait to see what you have in store ... when the time is right 💚💚.

Love IrieGamerGyal (IrieSimmer)

I'm so sorry for all the pain and sorrow you have been through. Don't worry about us. You do what you need to do as your mental health and life is so much more important than a video game. I support you in whatever you need to help your well-being as i expect many others do too. You do you! and let that sunshine shine through 😘🌞

Although I don't know you personally, I've been where you are and have been. It took me years to get over the death of my mother. Then, as I started to realize I had healed from it, my in-laws began to pass away My grandmother my father lots of pets along the way. I had to take a break from myself from everything. If people really truly cherish you they will follow and will give you the time to heal that you need. I'm glad you were able to take time for yourself and get yourself into a better place.

I also struggle with depression. It started about 22 years ago when I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. Always find time for yourself mentally that way you don't lose yourself completely.

Greetings. First I will say I am very sorry for your losses, I myself struggle with mental health issues, lack of motivation and finding the time and energy to finish the things I want to do, I am also healing little by little, and I understand the feeling of wanting to start over with my projects, the most important advice I can give is that the most important thing is that you are here and healthy, and whatever you decide you need to do to stay that way, I am with you. I love your mods and I am sure that I will love you new mods as well, even if it means saying goodbye to your old mods. Thank you and take care of your health ❤️

We are here for you. Although I love SOL and Explore, I am excited to see what you create with all the new updates. You are an extremely talented modder and we love your work. Take however much time you need. <3

Thank you for sharing this. I have felt the same this year and have been through a lot of loss also. You aren't alone. Love and hugs. ❤️

Hello,

We love all you have created and I wanted to thank you for sharing your creations with us. I also want to take this chance to remind you that as painful and hard your low experiences can be; they are there to make us grow. You've learned and have grown so much because of what you've gone through. We cannot know happiness if we do not experience sadness, we cannot know strength if we do not experience fear.

You have been through so much, and I completely understand where you are now and why you were away for so long. Of course we missed you, but you're not you if you're not okay, we're not okay if you're not okay, and anyone who'd rather you work yourself into the ground opposed to you stepping back and healing, taking time for yourself, isn't a real strawberry. I love you Kawaii, I'm here until the end, new start and all!! 🤍🍓

• Strawberry Syd 🌻

Your story is so inspiring and I am happy you felt comfortable enough to share it, it is inspiring because it shows, no matter how much life knocks you down, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for being so brave. You are appreciated! Just know, there are people within your community who care about your wellbeing, not just your mods. Take your time, go at your own pace. Those people (myslef included) will be here. 🫶🏽

Sadly I totally can relate to what you've been fighting through and I think you taking the time to put yourself first was the best thing you could do. I've recently just switched from console and I can't wait to see what you've been dreaming up.

Enjoy playing again first! Figure out what you feel would make the game, in its current form, better for you. I'm sure we'll agree and enjoy whatever it is you come up with!

Be kind to yourself x

I'm sorry for your loss and sorry you've had to experience so much hurt and confusion. You're only human you owe us nothing. I'm proud of you for getting through your pain and prioritizing yourself. Life is questionable at times. But you didn't let that stop you. Whatever direction you choose to go in, listen to your heart and remember how you kept going. I hope you make new discoveries about yourself and your passions. Thanks for everything <3

I would never write a comment normally, but I need to tell you that you're awesome and I love you. Never give up, never doubt of yourself. You make a difference in a lot of people's life and you are important to someone, sometimes is hard to notices but you are. Thanks for being such a beautiful person, from a total stranger simmer <3

Take your time , you are amazing and your mental health is more important and your true strawberries will be right here when you're ready!!! You're amazing!!!

At first I came here to ask you about your K-pop idol mod but after reading all of this I help but feel shameful that while you where going through this all I was thinking about was your mods. I am deeply sorry and disappointed in myself. I came here with a foolish question and left with a full understanding of what’s going on I will do my best to support you during your journey and reply to all those negative comments about you and your modding just make sure to take care of yourself and come back to use starting today I’ve officially learned the meaning to theirs always more behind what is shown thank you for blessing us with the slice of life mod can’t wait for your other ones -from a new Strawberry (and won’t ever leave)

As a creator of an important mod, you must understand that your supporters will naturally be upset by it no longer being available and possibly look elsewhere or not at all. I check in every few months or so because I do want to know if the mod has been updated. It's not that we don't care about what you're going through, it's that life goes on - for us and for you. That means we all do what we must do. That means you must too. I would be overjoyed if your mod was again active and updated but you are the only one who can determine whether or not you can do that. I don't know you but I still wish for everyone to find a path that enables them to have whatever peace they can find on this Earth. If song is your path, feel grateful you've found it. If modding brings you happiness, glad for that, too. If it doesn't, then you get to decide what happens next.

Essentially, in spite of or because of your losses (and I empathize with the sorrow and pain you've experienced), it seems you've come to understand it's in your control...you decide how to proceed. Just keep remembering that...it's very powerful.

I'm so sorry for the loss you've been through and please take your time. You've done more than enough for the community and I wish you nothing but light and love; Be kind to yourself <3

I know this is older now but I was redownloading sims and streamlined to your mods as they were always a base for modding my sims and I felt so touched by this - seeing that you were still currently active made me so happy. For whatever its worth from a stranger - I hope you're doing well and doing whatever you need to maintain your happiness and motivation. Also I cant stop listening to your music wow just w o w such a creative soul . <33

I can totally relate to you. Im really proud that you took care of yourself. I know how it is to lose people. It isn't easy. I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that. Know that we are all here for you and we are'nt going anywhere love x

I have loved your moms since the start of my sims playing. Times get tough, and I am so sorry you are going through that. You should take a break, dont rush things! Heal first. Your health matters.

Those people who didn't stick with you because, you were trying o=to heal were probably not good friends anyways. They probably weren't going to stick with you for long. You deserved a lot better then. And trust me, I know grief, loss, and trauma, and I could tell through those songs you were hurting. I wish you the best on this new journey. I will be there with you <3

I'm so glad you are back with us, but I'm also so proud of your ability to take a step back and allow yourself to heal. We love your mods, but we love YOU more. You do whatever you need to do for YOURSELF. I will still be here. Your music is absolutely amazing and I've been showing all of my friends!

I understand< I to struggle with depression and have many losts. I know the feeling of being swallowed by darkness not being scared and just wanting to fade into it. Life is so so hard for most now a days, so hard that giving up feels as if it would a relief. But don't!! I know when people say things like I love you especially to a stranger its almost never believed. But I have an understanding about life all life and I know we are all connected and meant to be here and must go thru what we do and giving up can not ever be an option. It is true when I say a complete stranger LOVES YOU!! ME!! As tears fall down my face as I write to you. If you wonder how, its because through youre sharing I caught a glimpse of youre beautiful heart. Remember through the darkest times in our life there are those that want to help light your way, just reach out! Much Love, Carissa

Always you first. Sims is a game it is not a life important. You are important. Your physical AND mental health is important. It is the most important of all. Take time to grieve and mourn. To steady yourself and heal. We are all here when you feel you are ready and ONLY when you feel ready.

Take care of yourself, first. ALWAYS. everything else can wait, I'm immensely proud and grateful that you've come back to the community. Anyone who says otherwise, doesn't deserve you or your contributions. Thank you for sharing and I hope you're in a much better place now <3

I am with you. Do what you need to do to feel better about everything again. I love your mods, but they're only fun when I know you have enjoyed 'adding that bit of sparkle' to Sims 4 as you were once. I can wait until you feel that again. <3 Create your music, heal, fall in love with the things you love again, and I will wait and be happy for your creativity to express itself again. hugs

Above all, thank you for sharing such a personal trial with us, and thank you for being strong enough to prioritize your mental health over any expectations that strangers demand of you.

As someone that fell in love with your Slice of Life mod and how it impacted the game, I suppose I am hesitantly hopeful for whatever mods you end up deciding you want to work on.

I hope this can remain a hobby that brings you joy, as you continue your journey, instead of a demand that keeps draining and dragging you down. Please do what's best for you, no matter what expectations get placed on you.

I want to start by saying do what you need to do!! The people that love you will be behind you all the way! I've lost so many people, have gone through so much crap at a young age (moved out at 16 & been on my own since!) so if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always here and I'm sure others are as well! Sometime's in life we lose ourselves, and its okay, because we'll always find ourselves again but do what you need to do to find yourself and make yourself 100% love! As someone who's just gotten into modding, I found yours and have loved yours like no one else's! You made such a dark time in my life, a lot brighter <3 !! And whether you choose to continue, or whether you need to stop to find yourself again I'm here to say a lot of us support it either way! Best of wishes!!!

Any updates on the slice of life mod that was my favorite mod you had

I am so appreciative to have read your message to us, who love your work so dearly, your mods are family to all my computers i have ever had and cant wait for your new creations to the game.. u just knowww what we need :) im so excited your back ! <3 !

I completely understand. I lost my son in 2/2/22 to suicide and life will never be the same.

If you never fix any of your old mods, that's fine. If you completely start over, that's also fine. If you wanted to quit, that would also be ok. You need to worry about you. We care about YOU, not what you can create. We love what you make, however you yourself is what matter to us. Not the mods. *hugs*

Hey don't worry there is always a point of life where everything seems like it won't get better but trust me, it will. Stay strong and have hope. Luv ya ❤️

you are stronger than you know😘take it one day and one step at a time, dsont blame yourself for anything, rather take your time to heal. if you need a talking buddy and 24 hours friend! i can leend you a shoulder and just reach out, i will send you my private number upon request. God is not done with you

You do whats best for you, your mental health is far more important than anything. I wish you the best <3

Just know whether you know them or not, there are people that care about you and your mental health. We as your fans may not know you, but we get to learn and go through this journey with you. You getting better and recovering is worth the wait at least to me. Do what makes you happy, we will stand by with you and your decisions. Some of us are finding ourselves along with you too. 😊💗

You are wonderful! You are adored, loved, and truly appreciated. I completely understand how you feel, and I am so happy you're taking care of yourself! You need to! You are most important. We're always going to be here.

I am so sorry about everything that's happened. I can't imagine how you must have felt, the thoughts and emotions. We do not know each other but I want to say, I am proud of you. I know how it feels to lose motivation for the things you used to love. I myself am going through that currently however, I am proud that you are taking your time and putting yourself first. I am proud of you for not giving up. The game, the friends/followers that have been with you over the years, we're all still here. What matters to us is your happiness, your health and how you're doing! You matter and are very much important in every way possible. This journey you're embarking on, myself and others will be right there. Take your time, go at your pace and the creations you make, the art you put out, I'm so excited to see where it takes you! You're strong, resilient and capable! You got this! Thank you for sharing the behind the scenes of your life even if it's a small part of it but a big part to/for you. We're so proud of you love!❤️

I pray for you to have a blessed recovery. And Lord Jesus loves you, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes.

It would be best to prioritize taking care of yourself and doing the things that make you happy and bring peace to your life. Thank you for sharing your gifts with us, and please know that your efforts have not gone unnoticed. I want you to know that you are appreciated and I absolutely love your mods. Should you start over, I'll be here as long as the game is here. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. 🤗

Happy New Year!

ILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING WHEN YOU COME BACK AND IF U DONT THATS FINE WITH ME :D

TAKE YOUR TIMEEE. WE ARE ALLONLY HUMANNNNNNNN I LOVE YOUUUUU

I do not know you, only that you mod, but I can tell how incredibly kind and caring you are as a person. PLEASE take care of yourself, you and your mental health come first before anything. I know from personal expreience what you are going through and how you are feeling as well, and it needs to be taken seriously so I am so glad you are taking it like that. Don't rush yourself, go at your own pace and when you're ready, come back healthier than ever!

take care of yourself,

Anastasia 💕

You got this babe!

You are an amazing modder and ill always stick by your side no matter what you decide to venture on to do

I pray that Jesus wraps you in His arm and never let you go. I am so sorry for all the loss you have experience. I pray that depression has no hold of you in Jesus' Name. You are love, strong, smart, beautiful, seen and heard. You come before this game and modding. Sims and supporters can wait. Make sure your heart is happy first and if you need help don't be afraid to ask. Pray and Jesus will answer you and comfort you, He loves you!

Be encouraged!! GOD bless you!!

I would rather you get better than working on your mods just for us to play. I don't mind waiting longer for you. You have to remember there are other mods out there to keep us busy and it gives you more time to work on your health. You are still apart my pateron and always will be. I feel repentace towards your losses and i will say a prayer for you. I strongly feel you should surround yourself with something you love doing and anything or anyone strips your strength hope faith enegry stay away from. Please take good care of yourself and just know that God is with you every set you take

So as I assume that you have deleted all of your previous mods except the one that can pet frogs and insects, theres no way to download them anymore? I mean, I have a backup of my favorite mod from you on anywhere so there are no possible to I lose these mods though. I still using your mod especially the My Social Life (Translated verson to my language) and the Colored Ball one (Idk how to say it in english, the ball that Sims can build a pot or etc). I don't realy mind other mods but the My Social Life, especially the feature that added more of farewell texts when the visitors go back to their home, and visitors (I mean the friends and lovers etc) asks by call that they want to visit us and once I accept, they really come, its my most favorite part of the mod. Because it feel less needed if its always me calling my friend , they never come from thier side, it feels very lonely and miserable you know. The mod was still perfectly working till little while ago, maybe earlier or middle of this month. But it has stoped it work. Please consider think that if one day you'd make a mod again, mod that include the feature that sims come visit us from their side. especially friend and lovers. Well its also ok if you hate it, I will keep use this mod untill it all features stop to work. I think maybe the thing might be fixed on its own, by time, like TV. or machine. Anyway sorry for long message. I jus wanted to tell you that some of your mod was still working and I really lonely to see that my friends dont come visit me even if I say ok. I feel like talking to lier Sims because they don't come to see me.

Hi, please take care of yourself. Sims community can wait, your health can´t and you should be your first priority. You're amazing!

I'm so sorry to read this! I have suffered with depression for most of my life, and I understand the struggle! Big thoughts and hugs coming your way! I love your mods! Good luck with everything! It is a long road but seeing the light is the best place you can be!

I am a Chinese player passing by. I felt like crying when I came across this while searching for your mods.😥

I'm sorry that my English may not be very good. Before I spoke, I was worried that my inappropriate wording would bother you. But after thinking about it for a long time, I still want to try to express to you: Even if you fall, it is not your fault. In this difficult world, It is very brave to still be willing and work hard to live, not to mention being willing to resist and be optimistic. I think this is very powerful.

I see that there are many people in the comment area who also support you and encourage you, and I am happy for you. Yes, there are many people who like you, and on the contrary, there will also be people who don't like you. This is inevitable because none of us can satisfy everyone. There's nothing wrong with caring about what others think. And you just have to stay true to yourself. There are always people who like the real you. Being strong about yourself is hard, but it's worth it.

These are my thoughts, but it doesn’t mean you have to be strong to win the favor of people who like you. This is ultimately for yourself. I hope our liking for you won’t be a burden to you. Laugh if you want to laugh, cry if you want to cry. Life is long, but also very short. After all, no one knows whether a natural or man-made disaster will suddenly occur and cause life to be fleeting. No matter what, I hope you can feel that life is worth it. It doesn’t matter if you don’t think so. I think being able to live in this world and encounter the things you like is enough. We have a saying: "人生得意须尽欢。" In English, it means "life is proud to be thoroughly enjoyed themselves."

(I hope I have a good translation to express the meaning of this sentence, haha)

My best wishes to you you the best. Angelic girl.

Life comes first, you are worth it, and I'm so glad that you are finally healing. 💜 I personally just started branching out & using mods/cc & your name always popped up in suggestions. I do use a few of yours & actually just came on your site to send a link to my sister since she's starting to use them too. The rebranding is so adorable! I wish you all the best & am excited for what you have in store for the future. 🤗

Life can be cruel and hard sometimes. Especially for creative souls. Praying for you and hope you will keep climbing up that steep hill ❤️

Yours was the first mod I downloaded! It changed the game entirely and is still my most used mod. While I LOVE Slice of Life, I'm eager to see where you will go and how this mod can evolve into something new and wonderful. It's a game, another world, an escape for so many people. My only wish for you is that you create something that you love! If you are thinking of starting fresh and new, maybe that will be the best for you. I know anything you create will be absolutely magical and I don't think you should overthink it or worry about who might not love it as much as you do. You have so many Strawberry's who love you and will stick with you because you've proven your worth to the community! Have fun, that's the whole point right?! Love ya babe, I'm glad you're still here 💙

PS. You NEVER disappointed me!

Sending loads of love your way. If modding is a fun outlet I will look forward to seeing whatever it is that you create. If modding is a source of anxiety and setting boundries isn't helpful then I hope you step back and feel no obligations to create.

i just lost my dad to sucide and i felt every word. i thought i was alone

Thank you for sharing your story even though you did not have to explain yourself to us, but you opening up is appreciated none the less. True fans will continue to support you no matter what, and that includes myself and so many others I am seeing. Take care of you first! This game and this community will be here for you when you are back at 100%. You have given us so much in the past years, and we are looking forward to what you will come up with next. Much Love!

I appreciate all your mods, but I'm excited to see what you'll create next. It's understandable that you're reflecting on the changes in the game, and I'm sure you'll come up with some amazing additions to the current version.

I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling. Although I can't fully relate, I understand burnout, and I know how hard even basic tasks can become. It's great that you're showing compassion and giving yourself space to take care of your needs.

On another note, I'm now a fan of your music! I had no idea you created music at all, and your sound is right up my alley. It reminds me of Poppy, Grimes, and pinkpantheress, while still being uniquely your own. I was originally searching for mods, but discovering your music was a happy surprise!

Keep pushing through, I know how you feel. I lost my father, my oldest son and my mother all on holidays, this time of the year will be the worst but, you got this.

1.You are smart

2. You are beautiful

3. You are strong

I love you, you can do it

nice song

i think this is amazing start again like you said a new modder i love the idea of starting from zero and building up i am soooo happy to hear you are doing better and feel new and happy and as always thank ypu for your time

I'm so happy to hear from you. First i am so sorry for everything you've had to shoulder alone, that is so much emotions to process all at once your response to taking some time was nothing but HUMAN. I adore you're work and it has significantly improved my sims gameplay, your art has made such a lasting impact in the sims community and I wish you nothing but success as you devote your creativity in another medium. You are so beyond loved and I am excited and grateful to be able to share part in this journey <33333333

Hi!! I understand what you went through and it is very healing to move forward, leave certain things that affect you, continue, create new stories, never stop smiling in the face of any adversity, I am also trying to heal my mind, to see life. from another point of view. Look at it and give it the value it deserves. Of course I will be on that new path with you, it would be incredible to support and help each other despite the distance. It's nice to see how you become a butterfly after a long process to get to where you are.😘

You matter and what you have dealt with matters. Priotizing you is no expense. You deserve and who you become going forward, is worthy of love and being seen in her moments when she cannot stand. I want to uplift you with these words; you are enough as you are today.

Your well-being should always be a number one priority. I'm grateful for what you added to the game in the past, but I'm also sure based on your skills and creativity you can add new great things to the game even if it isn't SOL. Do not let any hate or pressures from the community get to you, they should be just grateful that there are a community of modders who take time out of their day who improve the game. Thank-you for your service and I look forward to seeing what you do in the future.

Hello, I want to thank you for everything you do and for thinking of us despite these difficult times. 😊 I use your mods (favorite the Explore mod), I would like you to continue with that mod (when you are ready of course). I think you are a great creator, and that work can at some point distract you. Of course, I'll cover anything new you do, but what you've done so far is too good to leave.

Be well, find something in every day that fulfills you ❤️

Also if you ever notice that I am not suporting you just know that its do to lack of finances not you, and I will be back as soon as I can.

Dear I will and do suport you even when I am not playing the sims, I know your pain because I have been there in the loss and the mental, you are doing so well I am so proud of you, I love your music and I suport whatever you do whether it be moding, music or art, you are so talented and smart and your heart is so big and that makes me happy to see you thrive in life, with that said I will be right here supporting you always both with the mods, music, and prayer, and I pray that God will send you some help to help you catch up. 😊

You are the story of the Pheonix, from the ashes you will rise higher than you ever were and I would be honored to watch you rise and stand here as a supporter. Im so glad you have had happiness in your passions again, time is such a healer and Im so glad you shared your healing story! Thank you for being you!!

Health is Wealth and your mental health is importance. This thing called life is not easy but it builds resilience, growth and gets you prepared for the future. Ever storm will pass and it may not seem it when your in it, but as you can now see your making it through. Im sorry for your losses but im glad you pushed through, focused on yourself and are healing. Healing is a journey not a destination.

Hey I literally just came across your amazing mods yesterday. Reading this as a person who struggles more or less with mental issues myself resonates so much and I feel so sorry for your loss and all you had to go through. I could only try my best to imagine how hard it must have been for you. Just take all the time you need and you are never behind on anything. You never let anybody down for wanting to take care of yourself first. I really hope you will feel better soon.🍭

Hi Stacie. I just wanted to take some time to thank you for sharing this. I unfortunately share a lot of what you went through and I know how hard it can be to talk about loss and mental health. I am so relieved to hear about your healing process and how much you're just listening to yourself and your needs. Continuing to follow you and support you is an honor, we love and cherish you.

It sounds like modding might be more of a burden than a joy to you at this point. If so, PLEASE don't feel any pressure to continue modding. All of your followers who respect and care for you will understand and support your decision. Those who don't understand don't deserve your time. You are important, and your mental health is valued. Remember to find your own ways to enjoy life! <33

Hey, I never got to use you mods and all the reviews I had read over time was so great that I wanted to try them found that they needed to be updated so initially I haven't got to try your work out... I'm not going to tell u what everyone else says, mainly because my experience is entirely different and traumatizing....but being a survivor of multiple mental health and addiction issues I can tell u that in time it gets a little easier and you love yourself a little more but it only works if you put the work in... you have to want to be happy, you have to want passion and creativity but most of all you have to want to know who you really are.... for you... not your supporters, not your family and definitely not your friends... you have to do for you solely... sorry this probably isnt what you wanted to hear but it's hard work and some days will feel better than others... but in the end it's all worth it finding who you are and what you love will ease the depression by a billion times, and nothing and no one can compare to it.... best of luck and take as long as you need if your passion is modding then I'll be grateful that you have found it and to try your work... or if singing is what you really want then I would gladly buy your album.... or if you decide to fall off entirely and stay home and do nothing then I'll happily support you best wishes..... a fellow survivor ❤️💯

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how you feel since 1) I suffer from depression & 2) I lost my mother over a year ago. You need to take care of yourself first and then everything else after that. I will be here no matter what! Take care of yourself 😊.

reading about modders' experiences like this reminds me to appreciate what you do all the more. you push through the worst life has to offer and somehow find the joy and motivation to come back to this game we all love. no matter what you choose or where you go from here, I will respect all the effort you have put into your mods so far. they were one of the first I ever downloaded and gave me hours of joy. thank you for that, and I hope to be able to continue this journey with you

I completely understand your pain. My cousin died recently and I was already in a bad mental state. Eventually worked with a psychiatrist and I've never felt better. It's a process but it's worth it in the end. I'm here for your journey.

I'm so sorry about what you went through. I know the feeling. Take your time with modding; I'll love any mods you create in the future.

though I have not been a patreon for long- I was very moved by you choosing to be so open and be vulnerable with us. I know it is not always easy to do that. I will stay and support but also please know- I am rooting for you. We all deserve love, kindness, compassion and patience! Thank you again <3